alone!

sitting here in the front of the computer rented PhP10 per hour, not hearing (rather ignoring) noise from the peole doing their own stuffs including the well-known DoTA...

i'm with them inside a very (in)convenient four-sided room just at the back of our house... i'm at home once again, yeah... but, why do i feel such boredom and sarcastic loneliness... i feel so alone... i have nobody to talk to... why? i don't find anybody to talk about life as a whole... people here are very surfacial, they won't understand my thoughts... they can never jive with my paradigms as well as my perspective... not because it's really omniscient, just because it's some kind of analysis... i wanted somebody to lean on... the sole feeling i have right now, is very annoying... i'm not being me... it's not me! i know myself better than any other... and i firmly conclude, i'm not being me this time...

development and progress...

i need to be productive... grrr... enough of individuality! tomorrow, will be a turning point of the moment... i need to certainly enjoy the break... i really need to...

so help me God...

Why cry?!

"punyeta! bakit hindi?!..."

i really don't know what to do now...
i'm super uncertain of everything including my own plans in life!
can someone possibly help me?
i'm in very psychological need right now...


or some love...?

whatever that is... can you provide to me?...