He's STILL the one...

...he's still the one that i love..
...the only one i dream of...
...still the one that i kiss goodnight...


It's been months since I felt this kind of happiness. I never had imagined that I'll be happy again because of *wink*...

Anyway, I think the reason why I am in such happiness is because I feel so free to admire someone like *wink* without any judgment from anybody.

I think... therefore I am... doing what I know right for me. No matter what I do, I can't deny the fact that I STILL unto *wink*. What I know right now is that I'm happy. Happiness is something not to be compelled into silence nor denial. If you're happy, be then. As long as you do not affect negatively the people around you, why bother thinking about them?

No matter how long it was, it's worth the wait.

19

Oh my God!

I'm already nineteen years old...
It's not that I'm shocked that I grow older...
It's not the fact that next year, I'm not a teen anymore...
It's not because the society requires me to mature now...

It's actually because I can't still accept that I have to do things on my own now.

This year MUST be productive especially to my self-development and secondly to my family's.
I want to prove something to many people which adds pressure to my current status.
But, I don't really care with pressure now. I want actually people to see me with a very optimistic approach to everything... that I don't mind pressure... that I don't care with challenges and that I solve those coming struggles all by myself...

I want to welcome you with my new world now...
I call it the "OKAY principle".

Now, as much as possible (I want to reiterate that, "as much as possible"), I will be living in a new paradigm that opens new dimensions of good (or bad) things and stuffs with an "OKAY" attitude. I wanted to put into my system this new principle. If things work, then "OKAY"; if it don't, then "OKAY". I don't want to put more complications in a life that itself is already complicated. Whatever will come, I will venture with it. If things go on the way I wanted it, I'll be very happy. But, if unfortunately, it don't go along with what I planned, then I will think of it just like what American architect and inventor R. Buckminster Fulle puts life in definition. Life is like an experiment, she says. There's no failed experiments, only experiments with unexpected outcomes. And I think from those unexpected outcomes, you're opened to new sets of learning and discovery that may become better ones than what you have hypothesized.

Well, that's life actually...
This new principle of mine will never be compelled into hidden me.
I hope people will really appreciate it and will somehow also learn from this.

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!

New Year's (RE) Solutions

Setting My Own New Year!!!

Welcome my 18th Christmas!

Two nights to go and I'll be celebrating my 18th christmas...

By this time, back then, I am already feeling some tingling excitement for the real christmas celebration... there's something in the breeze of the morning and dawn... there's a different sensation in every place i visit... there's a unique happiness everyone feel by that time... i don't why, what and how?... but i just can feel it...

I could still remember how happy i was back then when i'm just 7, 8 or 9 thinking that it's almost near christmas. I always get satisfied with everything I receive within the whole celebration. I really appreciate big gifts and extravagant generosity from my godparents. No christmas season that I collected less tha I expected.

Not until I was 14, 15 or 16 that I noticed certain changes in my christmas celebration. As an assessment, maybe it was just because of the Law of Diminishing Marginal Returns, or of the rapid inflation rate increase in the country, or an invisible economic recession, or the decline of products' value, or just merely climate change. For whatever reason, what i only know is that i started not to get enough contentment every christmas season from that phase of my life. Sad? Really sad... I also noticed that something changed in me personally. I started to be shy collecting gifts - maybe i had thought i'm old enough to celebrate such season.

Recession? Yeah... Maybe... Recession of excitement and crave for christmas celebration...

Xmas Change

it was a gloomy night back then... yeah, it was almost Christmas... maybe 11:45pm... i saw myself lying beside our bed... i wanted to sleep that night, but i can't...

i was thinking for the best wish i'll be having that year... one wish that could change my life... a wish that would make me a "new me"...

still, i'm lonely... is everything just a masked life? why am i that lonely?... i'm not used to be like that when people are around me... is everything fine?

UPLB Forestry Society's Birthday!!!

Today is the 26th anniversary!!!

THE BEST ENVIRONMENTAL-ACADEMIC ORGANIZATION OF UPLB!!!

obviously still and forever will be the best society in its mother college, the College of Forestry and Natural Resources, and all over the university...

the unique thing in this society is that we're not just merely brothers and sisters... rather we are a family sharing diverse and adverse history, cultures, opinions, interests, and personalities but are committed in unity and never-ending intimacy for each other... exact differences, contradicting manners, contrasting lifestyles, different views... we don't deny differences... instead, we celebrate those!

this society initiated me in a new world of reality... being in this university, it is mandatory to live on your own, based on what you want... i'm just so grateful that i've chosen the right one... the one that, i know, i will never regret instead be proud of...

just want to thank UPLB Forestry Society for honing my personality for development and betterment... no words can exactly express what excellence this society possesses... because excellence is such an understatement...

LONG LIVE UPLB FORESTRY SOCIETY!!!