19

Oh my God!

I'm already nineteen years old...
It's not that I'm shocked that I grow older...
It's not the fact that next year, I'm not a teen anymore...
It's not because the society requires me to mature now...

It's actually because I can't still accept that I have to do things on my own now.

This year MUST be productive especially to my self-development and secondly to my family's.
I want to prove something to many people which adds pressure to my current status.
But, I don't really care with pressure now. I want actually people to see me with a very optimistic approach to everything... that I don't mind pressure... that I don't care with challenges and that I solve those coming struggles all by myself...

I want to welcome you with my new world now...
I call it the "OKAY principle".

Now, as much as possible (I want to reiterate that, "as much as possible"), I will be living in a new paradigm that opens new dimensions of good (or bad) things and stuffs with an "OKAY" attitude. I wanted to put into my system this new principle. If things work, then "OKAY"; if it don't, then "OKAY". I don't want to put more complications in a life that itself is already complicated. Whatever will come, I will venture with it. If things go on the way I wanted it, I'll be very happy. But, if unfortunately, it don't go along with what I planned, then I will think of it just like what American architect and inventor R. Buckminster Fulle puts life in definition. Life is like an experiment, she says. There's no failed experiments, only experiments with unexpected outcomes. And I think from those unexpected outcomes, you're opened to new sets of learning and discovery that may become better ones than what you have hypothesized.

Well, that's life actually...
This new principle of mine will never be compelled into hidden me.
I hope people will really appreciate it and will somehow also learn from this.

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!